You know that feeling of accomplishment when you finally drop a few lbs and suddenly you think it's ok to eat chips again because your body is now rejecting all things fat and calories? Well I took it upon myself to have A glass of wine yesterday, which turned into 3.5. Then I decided I MUST have a snack to avoid getting drunk. F F F F F F F!! Today I suddenly believe I went up 2 sizes overnight and don't deserve to eat and the worst part is birthday week is starting this weekend. See, when you have divorced parents this is not always a fun time, neither are the holidays. You have to battle out who gets real x-mas day and who gets the pretend x-mas. Anyway, all of these events will involve yummy food and drinks and I really wanted to be at my first little cute weight loss goal by this Sunday. I didn't even make it that hard of a goal! Yesterday probably set me back 3 days. UGH! Today I do not deserve anything that taste good, so I guess I will have a big bowl of lettuce for lunch and dinner. Why is food so evil?
I am not fond of making decisions, unless it involves clothing or shoes with money being no object, but these days money is no object, there is none of it. So, no shoes and no clothes. I may have a job offer coming my way...a job offer that pays way less than what I made....a job offer with cool people who wear jeans and leave early on Friday...BUT a job offer that pays just a bit more than I take in from unemployment. This is seriously difficult...it's a total loser vs loser situation. I either take the job and feel happy in my jeans everyday in a NON asshole environment, but unable to pay for shoes and ebay shit ever again...OR I make a little more and ride out this unemployment thing hoping I get a better paying job that could potentially be in a total asshole environment. It's hard being out of work as time goes on. You lose steam with each passing day. The days are long but the weeks fly by. I guess I need the job offer to officially happen before I can choose which loser I think sucks less.
I feel lifeless this week and don't even have the energy to compose a blog in progress I have wanted to post for sometime now. Sorry to disappointment the two of you that read. I should just go for a long walk, but I am having the nervous shits today and I am scared to be strand
ed out in the street when another one comes along. It would be like the chick in Bridesmaids who shits in the street. Awesome.Also, I just have to say that I think the Happy Birthday song is the most awful and annoying song I have ever heard and I always fake sing it at peoples b-days.
So oh well, if I still feel like a rhino by next week at least I have many awesome things to do for the weekend and I will just do them rhino style.
JJ
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