Well, a couple of people have mentioned after discovering that C & I had a blog, that I should keep writing. I stopped after I lost my job. Originally this was going to be a silly blog for C and I to comment on whatever the topic of lunch that day was, or anything we felt the need to share with everyone or rather... no one. I am not sure I have anything entertaining to say nowadays but I suppose as I am going through this life change as a prisoner in my own house now, I could enlighten whoever may care.
So.....C and I thought our silly lunch time blogs would be fun to start doing back in May. Sometimes our topics of discussion at lunch were too fun not to share. The things we wondered we thought we would put out there in hopes that our blog friends would find us. It sounded fun and was but then after 7 years at the same company I lost my job. Sad? no...hardly. Sad because C is no longer down the street everyday? Yes. It is weird and makes you feel like a piece of shit to lose a job but I was in total hell and even though this is a different kind of hell, it's a better hell. I was at HEB last week right around 5pm and saw all these women in heels and dress pants. I felt a tiny bit of jealousy knowing they had jobs but as I looked closely I realized they are all probably annoyed, getting massive amounts of wine to chill the F out from their shit day at the office. That was me, times infinity. So I guess it is not so bad. My mind changes 900 times a day on the subject. On the other side of it, when I am out and about during the day I see many mom's with their hellions, the ones too young for school yet, so they are the super annoying kids you wanna punch as you shop. I see them and think..oh she is a stay at home mom so she doesn't have to feel guilty. I look around and wonder if anyone else is like me, just an unemployed person looking to kill time and not kill themselves from total insanity. This insanity can be confirmed by my new love and desire to watch Melrose Place on Netflix instant. Although I grew up loving 90210, I never had interest in MP. For the first month of the jobless life I re-watched the Sex and the City series as I job searched on the computer. Once that ended I went to a new LOW and started MP. WTF??? All I can say is, at least I am not drowning myself in Day of our Lives. In fact I have watched Y&R since i was 10. My grandma got me hooked every summer so it just never stopped. I have like 15 days worth in DVR. MP has me all wrapped up in this shit. Sad, yes I know. Mornings are my best time. I get all excited for coffee and computer time, then by 11 I am feeling like a POS. It is such a weird thing to be in this world. I used to fantasize about how awesome it would be to not work at a shit office job with all it's BS office politics. To not have to learn to be a "kiss ass" that I clearly, am not. Maybe if i had been I'd have a job still, but F that business. I don't do that. won't do that. So here I am in the fantasy I hoped for. Not as glam as I thought. It's hard to want to look for another shitty office job after being away from that hell for a while. I think brown nosers are the worst. They are such assholes. But the truth is, they are the ones that go places in that type of environment. This is not a world I want any part of. I suppose retail is worse. It seems they work twice and hard and make half the money the office a-holes make. No one reads this but if people did, right now I'd ask....what do you do with your time with you have this much of it??
JJ
